I find it hard to talk
or write
everything I say
isn't really false
but it doesn't seem
true either
it's trulse
it's nothing
it's a molecule
with a structure so
complex
one would need a
thousand lifetimes to describe
but naturally by then
the molecule would
have transformed
at least a hundred
thousand times
that is how I feel
when I talk
what I say
is electrons
or atoms
never molecule
like a commercial
advertising cocoa milk
I tell you calcium is
good for your teeth
but I forget to say
that sugar is bad for them
I write poems
sometimes
poems like this one
they come easier to me
I don't know why
but these poems
they are nothing
they are only pieces
of my days
I read them sometimes
a month
a year
later
and I laugh at them
I laugh at the boy who
wrote them
I like him
I like that boy
he is beautiful and
funny
but he is not me
he is someone who was
there
felt something
saw a poem in it
then disappeared
forever
and left no trace
except some words on
paper
words composed by
someone
I will never be
I will never be
