I find it hard to talk or write

I find it hard to talk or write

everything I say

isn't really false

but it doesn't seem true either

it's trulse

it's nothing

it's a molecule

with a structure so complex

one would need a thousand lifetimes to describe

but naturally by then

the molecule would have transformed

at least a hundred thousand times

that is how I feel when I talk

what I say

is electrons

or atoms

never molecule

like a commercial advertising cocoa milk

I tell you calcium is good for your teeth

but I forget to say that sugar is bad for them

I write poems sometimes

poems like this one

they come easier to me

I don't know why

but these poems

they are nothing

they are only pieces

of my days

I read them sometimes

a month

a year

later

and I laugh at them

I laugh at the boy who wrote them

I like him

I like that boy

he is beautiful and funny

but he is not me

he is someone who was there

felt something

saw a poem in it

then disappeared forever

and left no trace

except some words on paper

words composed by someone
I will never be